Loss of purpose
For the man going through the motions after the fire went out.
Nobody's yelling. That's what makes it hard to name. You just… coexist. Separate screens in the same room. Logistics instead of conversation — who's picking up the kids, did you pay the water bill. Sex is rare or gone. She's stopped bringing things up; you've stopped noticing that she stopped. Or maybe it's louder than that: the same fight on repeat, a word like "divorce" that's been said out loud once and hangs there.
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01 · Not alone
You're not the only one
You came home from the mountain determined to be a better husband. Maybe you were, for a while. But marriages don't turn on one weekend. And a man who's ashamed that the marriage is still hard is a man who stops showing up to the manada, because the last thing he wants is to be asked how things are at home.
You're not the only one. A lot of the men who look solid at the RPM are quietly in the same room you're in.
02 · Alone with it
What it does to a man alone
A man alone with a failing marriage tends to do one of two things: withdraw further (more work, more screen, more silence) or build a case (she's the problem; I've tried; nobody would blame me). Both make it worse. Withdrawal confirms to her that she's alone. Case-building makes reconciliation impossible, because you've already assigned the verdict.
He also becomes vulnerable to the wrong comfort. A marriage in trouble is where temptation does its best work — attention from someone else feels like proof that the problem is her. And spiritually, he drifts, because it's hard to pray honestly about a marriage you're trying not to look at.
"Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her" (Ephesians 5:25). Gave himself up — not "was right," not "waited for her to change first." The verse puts the initiative on the husband. That's a heavy assignment. It's also a way forward that doesn't depend on winning.
03 · What a brother does
What a brother does
Stop making the case. Start making the inventory
Write down, honestly, your part. Not hers. What have you stopped doing that you used to do? Where have you been absent, harsh, or checked out? This isn't self-flagellation; it's the only part of the problem you can actually change.
Ask one question and listen to the end
"How have you been feeling about us?" Then don't defend, don't fix, don't explain. Say "tell me more." If she doesn't want to talk yet, that's information too. Don't force it.
Do one concrete thing she'd notice, and keep doing it
Bedtime with the kids so she gets an hour. The dishes without being asked. Phone in the drawer at dinner. Actions she can feel are worth more than any conversation about "working on us."
- Tell one man this week. "My marriage is in trouble." Not the details of her failures — your situation and your part. Ask him to pray and to ask you about it next week. A man who's said this out loud to a brother is far more likely to do the hard work than one who's hiding it.
- Look into REM. The movement offers a resource for couples; check the program and conditions directly with them. Don't hand her a link as a demand. Ask if she'd be open to it. For your wife →
04 · Getting help
When to get professional help
Get a licensed marriage counselor if the same fight repeats for months without resolution; if either of you has said "divorce" seriously; if there's been infidelity; if you've stopped being able to talk without it escalating; or if either of you feels done. A counselor isn't a last resort — it's what wise couples do before it becomes one. A pastor can help you pray and see the marriage through the lens of faith; he's usually not trained as a therapist, and most good pastors will tell you that themselves.
If there is violence, threats, or fear in your home — in either direction — safety comes first. We do not push contact or reconciliation where someone is afraid. Seek a local protection network and appropriate care. USA: National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233, or text START to 88788. Brazil: Ligue 180. In an emergency: 911 (USA) / 190 (Brazil).
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Also common
Other weights men carry
Anxiety
For the man whose mind won't shut off at 3 a.m.
Pornography and addiction
For the man who swore it off on the mountain and is back in it.
The whole ask
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